On rereading my past blog posts for the year, I have one thought:

What the hell was I thinking? O_O
I sounded like I was on drugs. With all the 'haha' and 'lawl' and all that nonsense.

Though I still can remember why I made each and every post, and what I felt when typing each and every word out. Some were tinged with regret, others with pain, others with something akin to euphoria. I'm still searching for the contented happiness that I'm looking for.