Life is good!

Still feeling kinda high from saturday, so nothing has been able to get me down today. Not even people's flaming of bayley and our play and trying to get us disqualified and whatnot because I know we've done our part and I'm very very happy with what we've achieved.

Had to take Chem test on electrolysis today despite not being prepared. Next time I should really check the timetable before assuming a test is on a certain day -_- At least I still could remember everything and I think I did decently. Same for magnetism. Smoking through ftw.

Math integration tmr! I'm not very confident for it =/ Oh well! Once its over I can take a nice break for a day at least. I'm itching to go play with the new tv =DD High-def gaming is unbeatable, really. The price for the TV, I realized, is extremely cheap. Yay for offers!

I hope my good mood continues, its nice to live life happy and contented, especially with people around me that never fail to make my day :)

BAYLEY DRAMAFESTE '07

best play! =DD

The last few months of slogging through scriptchecks, discussions, meetings, and most of all rehearsals till late, was all worth it; every, last, second. Can't do justice to it in so few words, though I shall try to in a later post when I have a bit more time and the actual house standings are released for dramafeste. I'm not sure whether we'll get first or not but nvm nothing can burst my bubble now.

Not even my computer crashing on me, which has forced me to use this laptop to blog and do homework.

Thanks so much for coming down! =))

I'm totally o_O now. Dramafeste is on Saturday omggggg. Rehearsals went okay today but I got quite freaked out at one point for some reason, cos at one point our interpretation of the script went into twilight zone territory and I dunno why but suddenly I felt damn freaked out. Not a nice feeling at all. It left once we went to the LT, interesting. I think our rehearsals are the funniest shizz ever, cos our script is of the winnnn. Randomness. Settled tickets for people too ahh one thing off my mind.

I'm trying not to think about lit test today because there's a very good chance that I might fail nooooo.

This feeling that's taking over me seems rather weird because I'm feeling angry at someone I don't even know. Face facts? Maybe this proves it.

I've finished it, after around 5-6 hours of reading.

I think its a fitting ending to the amazing series, although it WOULD HAVE BEEN NICE NOT TO HAVE BEEN SPOILERED BEFORE HAND BY SOME _____.

It's an odd feeling, a mixture of elation and melancholy, because once you're done the inescapable feeling is that it's over, there won't be any more books, this is the end. The ending was handled well, although the book was very dark, much darker than even OOTP. Deaths abound; seriously, they're everywhere. I became abit worried after 400+ pages where nothing much seemed to be happening yet, but things really picked up speed and it was quite a ride till the final page. The epilogue was...a good way to end off, though IMO the last line wasn't really the best but to each his own. Summed up quite nicely.

And oh, most of the predictions before were actually quite accurate.

You need to get it. Now.

I GOT IT WOOHOO.

=))

To let this not be a totally pointless post, here's a funny video of fall out boy's bang the doldrums. The end part of the chorus make me laugh. Alot.



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Interestingly, I've got a few posts that are saved as drafts, but I dunno whether I ever will post them. No, they're not very emo things (at all) but just some long angry rants about stuff that I think I would have regretted if I had posted them. Not because I didn't mean them, because I did, but cause I don't want to put it for the whole to see; I won't stoop that low.

I've been very tired recently. As in, more tired than usual, which is saying quite alot. I'll be glad when dramafeste is over because I know my acting, at least to myself, is painful to watch. I really can't act. Nevermind, you can all go laugh at me next saturday night.

School has been...alright. Things have settled down abit. Doesn't really feel like week 4 maybe because things have been rushing past in a blur, and I haven't sorted out quite a few issues, but they're not very important as of now.

It's been a tough month.

On rereading my past blog posts for the year, I have one thought:

What the hell was I thinking? O_O
I sounded like I was on drugs. With all the 'haha' and 'lawl' and all that nonsense.

Though I still can remember why I made each and every post, and what I felt when typing each and every word out. Some were tinged with regret, others with pain, others with something akin to euphoria. I'm still searching for the contented happiness that I'm looking for.

I've been in a very bad mood today, which may have been either caused by or aggravated by my sickness. Didn't go to school today, because I really needed the rest. I could post a whole long tirade (which I wanted to in a particularly heated moment in the afternoon) but I won't because it will probably be very boring and would lead to me being banned from blogging and such. Yeah.

Would it hurt to see a little bit more commitment from you people? Maybe cause I realize that my acting is quite lousy which is why I haven't been making more noise, but really. It's in less than 2 weeks.

Tomorrow is going to be a long day and I hope I get rid of this bad mood soon.

Today I detect a faint glimmer of hope for me.

Yesterday made me feel, at least for a while, that life's good (:
No coincidence its a day that I get to spend at home slacking and resting oh gosh I need more of these days. If these days come by more often I'd bet I will be a much more contented boy hahahaha.

It's starkly apparent to me that I'm not as strong as I thought. It's amazing how much I can delude myself in the space of 3 weeks. But no, it's a step. It's been so easy time and time again to say that it's over, but it's not and I'm going to make sure that for once this sticks with me.

Not going to school tomorrow for cca or dramafeste, because I've been feeling sick for the past few days and these chestpains slight as they are are beginning to worry/irritate. It's something to do with the constant flu I've been having this year (I DON'T KNOW WHY).

My left leg is hurting in some indeterminate place around my hip joint, and the pain is getting quite unbearable which is why I'm trying to stay in my seat as much as possible.

Damn whats wrong.

Dramafeste in 2 weeks and omgwth we're going to have to go nuts over it to finish preparing AHH I'm nervous. Please let it go well. Especially in the wake of recent events, I don't know how I'm gonna do it but I want to prove you wrong.

Recent events have left me unsure of what to think anymore. Life's a long journey, pleasepleaseplease for your sake I hope that this pitfall doesn't leave you unable to go on anymore, or leave that small part of you that I know is still there crushed forever. Maybe it's just cause I can't accept it. But it's not my life, it's yours and yours alone, and it's only up to you now.

I need to feel more happy! Just that recently there's been precious little for me to feel happy about. Only a few things are keeping me going now.

I find myself very ticked off about someone.

Dude. If you've been with us every step of the way, helping out, doing what you were supposed to do, and not bloody well shirking your responsibility that your position requires, I won't comment if you decided to say what you did. But its precisely because you havent done squat that I'm so angry about. What gives you the right to say what you did? I was fine with you not doing any work, because I know that its your nature to not do work, shirk all your bloody responsibilities (because we get more work done without you anyway), but this is it. This is the last straw. I'm not going to swear because of you because you aren't worth it. You, my friend, have lost every single ounce of respect I ever had for you. (Not that I ever had much of it for you in the first place.)

If I could, I'd take that smirk off your self-satisfied face and bury it so far up you that you'd need a caesarian to take it out.

Yeahh worst part of the week's over, but still there's this niggling feeling that I should be studying for something, but I have no idea what O_O

For now I'll take refuge in the relative quiet of tonight (i.e. no work to do for once omgwth). I'm playing Oblivion again! Which I realize isn't a very good idea considering its school time.

I've got this sinking feeling that there's a piece of work that's very important that I've left undone. It is not a very nice feeling to have.

Bleach seiyuus (voice actors) are cool people.

At this rate, I have no chance in hell of being able to do the vectors test on monday. I'm just not a visual person wthzzzz. Why is emath tougher than amath?!

When I've got things on my mind I tend to blog alot. Like now.

These posts do not usually make sense.

Headacheeee.

It's been a long time since I felt this way.

Happy Birthday Hanlin!

(this year i'm on time)

Anw, was thinking about stuff for abit. I guess I've been going around saying stuff that I really shouldn't have out of frustration and perhaps even bitterness. Even if I haven't gotten over things, I think I'm in no position to judge despite my rather strong feelings so I'll leave it at that. If its not in God's plan, then I'll accept it.

I feel like I'm supposed to be there but I'm not, and despite my best efforts its making me upset again. Damnit what is wrong with me, what happened to the self-confidence I had awhile ago. Nothing I've done has gone right today. I can't say that it doesn't affect me because it does, it bloody well does.

feeling quite alone

Grow up la tzeern.

Points of Note.

I think I rather like satire. Its quite easy to talk about.

Dramafeste rehearsals were canceled last minute, so I ended up having piano lesson which I had spent loads of time on yesterday canceling. One thing off my mind.

It is kinda dumb to remain affected by something that's not very important, so I decided yesterday that I will not any longer. I think its working, although I wonder if I'm fooling myself again.

Fortunately I've moved on for some things. When one thing ends, something else begins. Wonder how things will progress.

Tevez for United: got online, saw the news, then read every single last one as they started pouring in right after I saw the first one. New articles were appearing every few minutes. I hope it works out, although I wonder why SAF wants a striker thats like Rooney. At least we know he won't be a flop yes. Transfers to a total of 70 million pounds this transfer period thats freaking insane. Not that I'm complaining though.

Am wondering just how much I can say on this blog. Its always interesting to see how much you can say without revealing too much of yourself, sort of like a tug of war. If both sides draw, I win.

Realized that my writing style for today is very matter of fact. Maybe I've been influenced by Gulliver's travels? Like for instance the Expedient Use of Capital letters which serve to emphasize Points well and which I continue to find rather Funny. Have always been a fan of that since Terry Pratchett. Just that it's used much much too often to my liking in Gulliver's Travels.

I think I've grown up quite a bit in this past half year, but there are things that I've gained and there are things that I've lost, and until I regain them I've taken one step forward two steps back.

Damn damn damn I really hope things work out. So many things.

I think I'll get an LJ soon, but i'll still keep this, there are ppl's blogs that I want to read. And the comments section of an LJ is so much better than blogger! Think I'll continue to blog here too. The fate of my first LJ shall be left as one of the unsolved mysteries of 2007.

Hahaha and this is hilarious, checkitout:

Wow its already the 150th post on this blog, 150 posts in around half a year.

I think I blog too much.

My mood for the day was pretty fantastic until I received a piece of news ahhh shit I'm not going to let this get me down I won't I won't I won't. THIS IS NOT GOING TO SPOIL MY DAY.

The morning jog was nice, even though we didn't jog that much (:
Next time we'll finish running the 4.5km k? Hahaha.
Enjoyed the morning lots, which left me in a good mood for the rest of the day, meaning I was productive heh and got quite a fair bit of work done. I'm still in no condition to face school tmr but who cares.

I'm going to keep on telling myself I can do it and maybe after a while I'll actually believe it. It's disheartening to have the stuffing knocked out you just when you're feeling pretty good.

I'm bigger than this, y'hear?