It's a strong front I have to put up now, for more reasons than one.

Damnit I'm just so freaking exhausted.

And I'm forcing myself to head to church tmr even when I think I need to sleep in.

Go figure.

Hahahaha walao crazy day out. I'm feeling dead la -.-

Trials was actually quite fun, just that I couldnt run to my best cos I'm still unwell >_< Ah well I scored a goal as a right-back yay hahaha hope i can get it ohwells =S

Meeting with DAS went well! Whoa everything's falling into place very good (Y)

Transformers was not bad, its nice if you're an action junkie, cos the CGI is fantastic. Plot's loose, and the ending's rubbish. But if you're an action junkie those won't matter anyway.

Another busy day tmr. I need to snap back, like a rubber band. Hope it doesn't hurt.

Hell of a day on tmr.

Pray that I'll make it through this month, cos I do feel like I'm being stretched here and there and pretty much everywhere and sooner or later I realize that something will snap, and that something is me. Everything is taking its toll.

Going for soccer trials tmr, even if I have no idea if I'll get it ah but what the heck anyway and I'm not feeling too good at the moment hope I'm okay tmr mm.

Its rather nice and somehow liberating to just talk in runon sentences that just seem to blabber everything out incoherently and yes incoherent is the word here lalala I think I should go sleep soon I don't sound very sober.

Eeeks. Sorry if I haven't been replying your tags people, I'll get to them soon!

Went for CM outing today, and I'm whacked out. More tiring than I expected, but hey it was still fun. Caught up with people I haven't seen for close to a month. Haha missed the whole load of them.

Learnt, or rather, realized something today. Happiness is where you find it. Last time I liked to live in the past, cause it always looked more ideal and I always feel I was happier back then but recently I realized just how naive that really is. If you can't find happiness in the present, you'll never find it anywhere.

(although its hard to do so when applications of differentiation's breathing down your neck)

But thats beside the point.

Last day of hols. One of the best, definitely. I'll miss it terribly.
Can't believe school starts tmr. -smacks forehead-

Oddly, math is the only subject that makes me want to swear. As in really swear. For instance; when I just can't grasp applications of differentiation at all despite my best efforts.

When I stare at the questions on the supplementary worksheet, they stare back.

Harder.

ZZZ there had better be no ta next week.

-Insertexpletiveofchoice- school.

Thing's aren't looking very good.

Damn.

Thanks (:

It's time to move on.

It's been ages since I last posted, and yes I know that alot of pictures are due. But that's for a time other than today.

(Note to self: I am freaking unfit.)

(Note to readers: this is an utterly random post that serves as an outlet.)





Was wondering after reading a post of someone's blog. Have I really moved on, or am I deceiving myself like the countless times before. It's much easier to go through life believing a lie to make it all seem better, but these things have a nasty way of cropping up at the worst moments. So, the question remains: am I living a lie? How can I be sure of anything? And damnit when will I stop? I really need to resolve all these issues, and fast.

I should feel happy...but I'm not. There's a lot of things I want in my life, but am I asking for too much? Perhaps I should just feel happy with what I have. But there's a part of me that remains...incomplete, for lack of a better word. Something, that no matter how hard I try, remains obstinately and frustratingly not there. The path is laid; I can't tread it.

How. Can. I. Stop. Living. This. Lie.