I'm a happy boy (:

First win of the season! Finally. Nani's goal was fantastic, Tevez still hasn't proven himself. Defending was shambolic, v v v v lucky.

AND found my zuowen book happyhappy

I am unbelievably depressed.

I was in a pretty good mood this afternoon. Music that I loved t0 listen to last year was playing through my speakers and it felt surprisingly nice to listen to it again, and the memories that it brought up.

Then I watched the Manchester derby.

&%$#%@#$*&@%

Life in RI really stinks when it comes to exams.

Screwed up math paper today, and I'm feeling pretty damn disappointed. The galling thing is that I never know whether I'm part of the majority who did badly after the test or part of the very same minority, because there are always people who screw up, and there are always the few people who score obscenely well. So I never have any idea where I stand, which is especially frustrating because I can't tell whether I screwed up because the paper really was that difficult (which I think it was) or because I just suck. And it really stinks when people start shouting answers after exams and I know its natural and no one can help it myself included but when all the answers sound totally foreign to me and I'm just counting mark by mark that I hope I got correct so that I can get that pass, which in any case may not happen.

I know I need more practice but its hard to find time to do so without sacrificing the time I spend not doing work that keeps me sane. Damnit the stress is going to my head and I'm tethering on a thread and there's still chem cct tmr which I havent studied for because I spent the time on math instead and now I think I might as well not have.

Life really really really stinks right now. I need something to be happy about.

It ends tonight.

Mark my words

Somehow I'm blogging like a madman today. Guess it's cause I've got the time hmm.

Heard the song which goes 'hey now, hey now, don't dream it's over' and it reminds me of p4/5, where I went with my family to New Zealand I think. When I look back now on it I think I was so happy and carefree back then. Love that place to bits, really. And somehow today seems to lack the colour of that past. Can I recreate it?

Hahaha just had to post a bit about the dream I had in those 15 hours. Was like some super surreal and weird dream, involved a quest of some sort with boss battles and stealth sections where we ended up in this palace/mansion thing on a flying carpet and long inane sections of character development (it's true) and then there was this stupendous plot twist where somehow woochiao (DON'T ASK ME WHY) turned out to be the betrayer and we all got caught by palace guards(?) and then random (more random I mean) stuff started happening. For some reason I could actually use my handphone during the dream. I had 2 missed calls and 1 new message. I found this out when the world started to flood and I had to swim to a hut to leave it with this huge giantess. It was a very odd dream. I should avoid sleeping so long next time.

When I'm home all day, I realize I tend to start thinking about alot of things, which in turn makes me not want to do work. Must stay focused.

Gosh. I win.

Came home at 530 yesterday, decided to take a nap at 6, slept through my wake-up alarm at 7 and woke up at 9 the next day. Thats 15 solid hours of sleep (!!!)

Off to do work for the whole of today. Ditto for tomorrow.

Stale blog yay!

Okay haven't been getting round to posting (its alr been more than one week wow) cos I've alternatively been busy and playing

GAMEBOYADVANCE on my phone xDD

Just like that, my life is gone.

OKAY anyway had alot of stuff for the past week or so, crosscountry and things, but I can't really remember anything interesting to talk about so there.

I'd post alot more often if I had the incentive to do so, tags would be nice! Heheh. Shameless soliciting. Okay woochiao I'll post sth more interesting tmr, I uh promise. x)

National Day holidays coming up! Which means time to chiong through homework/projects/mugging, which = no life. Sec 4 really is the pits when it comes to work.

Something's been on my mind, which has caused no small amount of conflict. Am I really being selfish by doing so? I know very well that without motivation I'm just going through the motions, so, what, do I motivate myself (highly unlikely and nigh impossible) or just save myself and everyone a bit of time and effort. Forcing myself to do something I don't want to do seems to be on the palette, but I'd rather settle for something else.

We learn from the laughter, the sorrow, and the tears.

Some things aren't better left unsaid.

I push it off over and over again; this won't do.

Life is good!

Still feeling kinda high from saturday, so nothing has been able to get me down today. Not even people's flaming of bayley and our play and trying to get us disqualified and whatnot because I know we've done our part and I'm very very happy with what we've achieved.

Had to take Chem test on electrolysis today despite not being prepared. Next time I should really check the timetable before assuming a test is on a certain day -_- At least I still could remember everything and I think I did decently. Same for magnetism. Smoking through ftw.

Math integration tmr! I'm not very confident for it =/ Oh well! Once its over I can take a nice break for a day at least. I'm itching to go play with the new tv =DD High-def gaming is unbeatable, really. The price for the TV, I realized, is extremely cheap. Yay for offers!

I hope my good mood continues, its nice to live life happy and contented, especially with people around me that never fail to make my day :)

BAYLEY DRAMAFESTE '07

best play! =DD

The last few months of slogging through scriptchecks, discussions, meetings, and most of all rehearsals till late, was all worth it; every, last, second. Can't do justice to it in so few words, though I shall try to in a later post when I have a bit more time and the actual house standings are released for dramafeste. I'm not sure whether we'll get first or not but nvm nothing can burst my bubble now.

Not even my computer crashing on me, which has forced me to use this laptop to blog and do homework.

Thanks so much for coming down! =))

I'm totally o_O now. Dramafeste is on Saturday omggggg. Rehearsals went okay today but I got quite freaked out at one point for some reason, cos at one point our interpretation of the script went into twilight zone territory and I dunno why but suddenly I felt damn freaked out. Not a nice feeling at all. It left once we went to the LT, interesting. I think our rehearsals are the funniest shizz ever, cos our script is of the winnnn. Randomness. Settled tickets for people too ahh one thing off my mind.

I'm trying not to think about lit test today because there's a very good chance that I might fail nooooo.

This feeling that's taking over me seems rather weird because I'm feeling angry at someone I don't even know. Face facts? Maybe this proves it.

I've finished it, after around 5-6 hours of reading.

I think its a fitting ending to the amazing series, although it WOULD HAVE BEEN NICE NOT TO HAVE BEEN SPOILERED BEFORE HAND BY SOME _____.

It's an odd feeling, a mixture of elation and melancholy, because once you're done the inescapable feeling is that it's over, there won't be any more books, this is the end. The ending was handled well, although the book was very dark, much darker than even OOTP. Deaths abound; seriously, they're everywhere. I became abit worried after 400+ pages where nothing much seemed to be happening yet, but things really picked up speed and it was quite a ride till the final page. The epilogue was...a good way to end off, though IMO the last line wasn't really the best but to each his own. Summed up quite nicely.

And oh, most of the predictions before were actually quite accurate.

You need to get it. Now.

I GOT IT WOOHOO.

=))

To let this not be a totally pointless post, here's a funny video of fall out boy's bang the doldrums. The end part of the chorus make me laugh. Alot.



(It took 5 minutes for the create post page to load, WHATS WRONG WITH BLOGGER?)

Interestingly, I've got a few posts that are saved as drafts, but I dunno whether I ever will post them. No, they're not very emo things (at all) but just some long angry rants about stuff that I think I would have regretted if I had posted them. Not because I didn't mean them, because I did, but cause I don't want to put it for the whole to see; I won't stoop that low.

I've been very tired recently. As in, more tired than usual, which is saying quite alot. I'll be glad when dramafeste is over because I know my acting, at least to myself, is painful to watch. I really can't act. Nevermind, you can all go laugh at me next saturday night.

School has been...alright. Things have settled down abit. Doesn't really feel like week 4 maybe because things have been rushing past in a blur, and I haven't sorted out quite a few issues, but they're not very important as of now.

It's been a tough month.

On rereading my past blog posts for the year, I have one thought:

What the hell was I thinking? O_O
I sounded like I was on drugs. With all the 'haha' and 'lawl' and all that nonsense.

Though I still can remember why I made each and every post, and what I felt when typing each and every word out. Some were tinged with regret, others with pain, others with something akin to euphoria. I'm still searching for the contented happiness that I'm looking for.

I've been in a very bad mood today, which may have been either caused by or aggravated by my sickness. Didn't go to school today, because I really needed the rest. I could post a whole long tirade (which I wanted to in a particularly heated moment in the afternoon) but I won't because it will probably be very boring and would lead to me being banned from blogging and such. Yeah.

Would it hurt to see a little bit more commitment from you people? Maybe cause I realize that my acting is quite lousy which is why I haven't been making more noise, but really. It's in less than 2 weeks.

Tomorrow is going to be a long day and I hope I get rid of this bad mood soon.

Today I detect a faint glimmer of hope for me.

Yesterday made me feel, at least for a while, that life's good (:
No coincidence its a day that I get to spend at home slacking and resting oh gosh I need more of these days. If these days come by more often I'd bet I will be a much more contented boy hahahaha.

It's starkly apparent to me that I'm not as strong as I thought. It's amazing how much I can delude myself in the space of 3 weeks. But no, it's a step. It's been so easy time and time again to say that it's over, but it's not and I'm going to make sure that for once this sticks with me.

Not going to school tomorrow for cca or dramafeste, because I've been feeling sick for the past few days and these chestpains slight as they are are beginning to worry/irritate. It's something to do with the constant flu I've been having this year (I DON'T KNOW WHY).

My left leg is hurting in some indeterminate place around my hip joint, and the pain is getting quite unbearable which is why I'm trying to stay in my seat as much as possible.

Damn whats wrong.

Dramafeste in 2 weeks and omgwth we're going to have to go nuts over it to finish preparing AHH I'm nervous. Please let it go well. Especially in the wake of recent events, I don't know how I'm gonna do it but I want to prove you wrong.

Recent events have left me unsure of what to think anymore. Life's a long journey, pleasepleaseplease for your sake I hope that this pitfall doesn't leave you unable to go on anymore, or leave that small part of you that I know is still there crushed forever. Maybe it's just cause I can't accept it. But it's not my life, it's yours and yours alone, and it's only up to you now.

I need to feel more happy! Just that recently there's been precious little for me to feel happy about. Only a few things are keeping me going now.

I find myself very ticked off about someone.

Dude. If you've been with us every step of the way, helping out, doing what you were supposed to do, and not bloody well shirking your responsibility that your position requires, I won't comment if you decided to say what you did. But its precisely because you havent done squat that I'm so angry about. What gives you the right to say what you did? I was fine with you not doing any work, because I know that its your nature to not do work, shirk all your bloody responsibilities (because we get more work done without you anyway), but this is it. This is the last straw. I'm not going to swear because of you because you aren't worth it. You, my friend, have lost every single ounce of respect I ever had for you. (Not that I ever had much of it for you in the first place.)

If I could, I'd take that smirk off your self-satisfied face and bury it so far up you that you'd need a caesarian to take it out.

Yeahh worst part of the week's over, but still there's this niggling feeling that I should be studying for something, but I have no idea what O_O

For now I'll take refuge in the relative quiet of tonight (i.e. no work to do for once omgwth). I'm playing Oblivion again! Which I realize isn't a very good idea considering its school time.

I've got this sinking feeling that there's a piece of work that's very important that I've left undone. It is not a very nice feeling to have.

Bleach seiyuus (voice actors) are cool people.

At this rate, I have no chance in hell of being able to do the vectors test on monday. I'm just not a visual person wthzzzz. Why is emath tougher than amath?!

When I've got things on my mind I tend to blog alot. Like now.

These posts do not usually make sense.

Headacheeee.

It's been a long time since I felt this way.

Happy Birthday Hanlin!

(this year i'm on time)

Anw, was thinking about stuff for abit. I guess I've been going around saying stuff that I really shouldn't have out of frustration and perhaps even bitterness. Even if I haven't gotten over things, I think I'm in no position to judge despite my rather strong feelings so I'll leave it at that. If its not in God's plan, then I'll accept it.

I feel like I'm supposed to be there but I'm not, and despite my best efforts its making me upset again. Damnit what is wrong with me, what happened to the self-confidence I had awhile ago. Nothing I've done has gone right today. I can't say that it doesn't affect me because it does, it bloody well does.

feeling quite alone

Grow up la tzeern.

Points of Note.

I think I rather like satire. Its quite easy to talk about.

Dramafeste rehearsals were canceled last minute, so I ended up having piano lesson which I had spent loads of time on yesterday canceling. One thing off my mind.

It is kinda dumb to remain affected by something that's not very important, so I decided yesterday that I will not any longer. I think its working, although I wonder if I'm fooling myself again.

Fortunately I've moved on for some things. When one thing ends, something else begins. Wonder how things will progress.

Tevez for United: got online, saw the news, then read every single last one as they started pouring in right after I saw the first one. New articles were appearing every few minutes. I hope it works out, although I wonder why SAF wants a striker thats like Rooney. At least we know he won't be a flop yes. Transfers to a total of 70 million pounds this transfer period thats freaking insane. Not that I'm complaining though.

Am wondering just how much I can say on this blog. Its always interesting to see how much you can say without revealing too much of yourself, sort of like a tug of war. If both sides draw, I win.

Realized that my writing style for today is very matter of fact. Maybe I've been influenced by Gulliver's travels? Like for instance the Expedient Use of Capital letters which serve to emphasize Points well and which I continue to find rather Funny. Have always been a fan of that since Terry Pratchett. Just that it's used much much too often to my liking in Gulliver's Travels.

I think I've grown up quite a bit in this past half year, but there are things that I've gained and there are things that I've lost, and until I regain them I've taken one step forward two steps back.

Damn damn damn I really hope things work out. So many things.

I think I'll get an LJ soon, but i'll still keep this, there are ppl's blogs that I want to read. And the comments section of an LJ is so much better than blogger! Think I'll continue to blog here too. The fate of my first LJ shall be left as one of the unsolved mysteries of 2007.

Hahaha and this is hilarious, checkitout:

Wow its already the 150th post on this blog, 150 posts in around half a year.

I think I blog too much.

My mood for the day was pretty fantastic until I received a piece of news ahhh shit I'm not going to let this get me down I won't I won't I won't. THIS IS NOT GOING TO SPOIL MY DAY.

The morning jog was nice, even though we didn't jog that much (:
Next time we'll finish running the 4.5km k? Hahaha.
Enjoyed the morning lots, which left me in a good mood for the rest of the day, meaning I was productive heh and got quite a fair bit of work done. I'm still in no condition to face school tmr but who cares.

I'm going to keep on telling myself I can do it and maybe after a while I'll actually believe it. It's disheartening to have the stuffing knocked out you just when you're feeling pretty good.

I'm bigger than this, y'hear?

It's a strong front I have to put up now, for more reasons than one.

Damnit I'm just so freaking exhausted.

And I'm forcing myself to head to church tmr even when I think I need to sleep in.

Go figure.

Hahahaha walao crazy day out. I'm feeling dead la -.-

Trials was actually quite fun, just that I couldnt run to my best cos I'm still unwell >_< Ah well I scored a goal as a right-back yay hahaha hope i can get it ohwells =S

Meeting with DAS went well! Whoa everything's falling into place very good (Y)

Transformers was not bad, its nice if you're an action junkie, cos the CGI is fantastic. Plot's loose, and the ending's rubbish. But if you're an action junkie those won't matter anyway.

Another busy day tmr. I need to snap back, like a rubber band. Hope it doesn't hurt.

Hell of a day on tmr.

Pray that I'll make it through this month, cos I do feel like I'm being stretched here and there and pretty much everywhere and sooner or later I realize that something will snap, and that something is me. Everything is taking its toll.

Going for soccer trials tmr, even if I have no idea if I'll get it ah but what the heck anyway and I'm not feeling too good at the moment hope I'm okay tmr mm.

Its rather nice and somehow liberating to just talk in runon sentences that just seem to blabber everything out incoherently and yes incoherent is the word here lalala I think I should go sleep soon I don't sound very sober.

Eeeks. Sorry if I haven't been replying your tags people, I'll get to them soon!

Went for CM outing today, and I'm whacked out. More tiring than I expected, but hey it was still fun. Caught up with people I haven't seen for close to a month. Haha missed the whole load of them.

Learnt, or rather, realized something today. Happiness is where you find it. Last time I liked to live in the past, cause it always looked more ideal and I always feel I was happier back then but recently I realized just how naive that really is. If you can't find happiness in the present, you'll never find it anywhere.

(although its hard to do so when applications of differentiation's breathing down your neck)

But thats beside the point.

Last day of hols. One of the best, definitely. I'll miss it terribly.
Can't believe school starts tmr. -smacks forehead-

Oddly, math is the only subject that makes me want to swear. As in really swear. For instance; when I just can't grasp applications of differentiation at all despite my best efforts.

When I stare at the questions on the supplementary worksheet, they stare back.

Harder.

ZZZ there had better be no ta next week.

-Insertexpletiveofchoice- school.

Thing's aren't looking very good.

Damn.

Thanks (:

It's time to move on.

It's been ages since I last posted, and yes I know that alot of pictures are due. But that's for a time other than today.

(Note to self: I am freaking unfit.)

(Note to readers: this is an utterly random post that serves as an outlet.)





Was wondering after reading a post of someone's blog. Have I really moved on, or am I deceiving myself like the countless times before. It's much easier to go through life believing a lie to make it all seem better, but these things have a nasty way of cropping up at the worst moments. So, the question remains: am I living a lie? How can I be sure of anything? And damnit when will I stop? I really need to resolve all these issues, and fast.

I should feel happy...but I'm not. There's a lot of things I want in my life, but am I asking for too much? Perhaps I should just feel happy with what I have. But there's a part of me that remains...incomplete, for lack of a better word. Something, that no matter how hard I try, remains obstinately and frustratingly not there. The path is laid; I can't tread it.

How. Can. I. Stop. Living. This. Lie.

Gentlemen, we've got a crisis on our hands.

I have no idea how I'm going to settle Founder's Day tmr. Seriously. One person unable to play, another sick and have gotten into a fight, and no freaking score. Yay, what, am I supposed to go there and sight read the whole freaking thing? In 15 minutes? In front of the whole school?

Oh, and we have to do it without mallets as well. Joy.

SATURDAY EVENING SERIOUSLY JUST WON'T COME WITHOUT A FIGHT LA.

Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed

Leave out all the rest by Linkin Park is my new favourite song (y) Not the most original or groundbreaking song, but I like it anyway so hah.

Watched Pirates yesterday! Too many characters, didn't play around at all with Jack's father (which is supposed to be a super opportunity to provide insight into Jack but noooo he gets 2 minutes of screen time), convoluted plot with too many betrayals that you don't feel any connection with any character-

-But of course, there's always Johnny Depp. (y)

Preview tickets are (y)

Blue dragon is an awesome gameeeeeee

Respect is difficult to earn, and easy to lose.

Keep that in mind.

I can't wait for the trip. Come on come on won't saturday evening come any sooner

!!!

New blogskin!

I've had time since finishing revision and english so here's a nice new blogskin :)

I distinctly remember promising one 6 months ago. I remembered!

Pics for taonan gathering next time I post! (Promise.)

Yep, we finally held our taonan gathering (which has been 3 years in the waiting), and although I didn't really know what to expect, we had fun (:

It's always nice to learn that there's something about the lot of us that makes us click, even though its been so long. Yay.

I think I surprised myself on Sunday night. Although it was kinda unexpected for me, I'm glad that one way or the other it's finally over. Thankyou! It's really nice to know that even though we haven't been in contact much we're still good friends (y) Talk more yes!

Didn't go to school today because I was totally whacked out yesterday. No energy whatsoever, but my 13 hour sleep has helped things :D Now to start mugging for SS proper. And finishing English. I shall finally do my 2 hour HCL exam tmr. Boo.




I pray that I'll learn to let myself go.
I can do this!

I didn't realize I needed it that much until I read it.

Thank you. You saved me.

THANK YOU BLOGGER the interface is finally fixed!

!!!

Auditions today were a non-event. As in, no one turned up. Oh joy.

I shall point to jorel's latest post on his blog because it's actually coherent and (dare I say it) one that didn't make me do this:

-facepalm-

Although this state didn't last very long for I started to talking to him on msn.





My frustration with certain things have enforced in me patience of a sort. The patience to wait until my obligations are over then I can have free rein to say whatever I want. My nerves are worn thin.

Whenever I'm feeling empty I know what's the reason, but I'm scared that I can't return, not because of anything else but because of my own failings. Sighh.

It's sometimes liberating to be vulnerable (NOT EMO ITS DIFFERENT).

Why is it that people laugh when others are honest about love? These same people experience the same feelings, but they laugh at others to make themselves feel better.

It's very nice to post random thoughts in random paragraphs randomly. Like, in a randomizer. Carvin-style.

Eh blogger admin if you see this can you please fix your create post page. Thankyouverymuch.

I wanted to post some long post but I'm too tired and inspiration just isn't forthcoming so I guess thats it for today. Toodles.

It's been a long weekend.

I'd rather not go through it again, cos I'm totally and completely drained.

It's been one bombshell after another.

And alot of revelations and truths I have been forced to confront.

I've been hit once too many times, and I think if things had gone on I would have just lost it. Not being melodramatic, but that's the way it is.

So I'm really thankful that one way or another some things have been resolved.

But I can't help feeling that more than one part of me has been lost in this whole period.

I'm scared I've lost -------

And I'm scared I can never regain it.

I'm sorry

I'm sorry

Blogging is increasingly becoming a chore, because of the screwed up create post template. Grrrrrrrrrrr it looks like blogger stopped halfway while creating the page, leaving an infuriating mismash that reminds me of some of my primary school art pieces.

Math over today. Good. Bio to go. Time to stop slacking and start mugging again >_<

And I just received a piece of news that has ruined my mood. I don't want to perform for founder's day!!

Kao.

And it's on the day I'm leaving for Japan some more. Ladidum -_-

The guy writing the soccernet gamecasts deserves a medal. At least the guy in charge of the Arsenal vs Chelsea match. I actually prefer his written words than the in-match commentary from ESPN o.O

ITS DAMN FUNNY XD

'No Michael Ballack (injured), Didier Drogba (rested) or Ashley Cole (terrified)'
'Hey we might get another 20 man brawl. That would be ace!!'
'Bouhlarouz clatter into Fabregas and Arsenal have another free kick. Mr Mourinho is not amused.'
'Terry and Adebayor had a little tug at each other there. Naughty, naughty!'
'The camera has just panned to Thierry Henry watching the action rather forlornly from the touchline. He still looks cool though.'

I won't last till the end of the match (gotta go to sleep) but these tidbits have made my day hahahahaha.

Kudos!

Vassell: My Hero :)

Left school after chinese paper 1 today. Had a bloody awful headache, it wasn't throbbing anymore, it was just hurting >_< Did the last half an hour of my zuowen in a daze, randomly grabbing my head when it hurt too much. I must have looked quite a sight. Eventually decided not to take paper 2. I mean, it's damn sian to go retake on another day but better than doing it when I can't even think (or walk, for that matter) straight. So headed home, and slept.

It's really exam syndrome pls. The moment I have the prospect of an exam paper coming up I do everything except study woots. This time it was watching A Walk To Remember hahaha. Read the book in december last year, but haven't watched the movie. I think the book was better, but still the movie was (Y). Despite what critics may say, if the movie has achieved its intended effect, then I think it should be considered not bad right.

A Walk to Remember is still the only book/movie/story to really move me alot. Haha. Yeahh.

Only Hope is a v v v v v v v good song.

Win I'm going to die for chinese tmr yay!

Yay no school tmr! =DD

This is good news indeed, for if there was no 4 day weekend, yours truly will be panicking and in a very bad mood now.

Off to do math and chinese (and maybe a lil bit of bio cos the fact that I know nothing about kidneys makes me very worried indeed).

And maybe play abit. Heh.

Portfolio is finally done.

Thankfully Chem CCT is over. Been really going nuts over it the past few days. Note to self: I hate sulphides.

And the next few weeks get even worse. Oh joy.

At least I can go for PE now. Just can't run or play soccer. We better play tennis tmr. After not playing for almost a year I forgot just how fun it is =D

Adolescent years come kinda unexpectedly, well for me at least. I never thought that one day I'd be one of those people ranting and raving, going all angsty and stuff but yeah my blog readers will know that those days came thick and fast at the start of the year. Not that I don't feel angsty, or whatever you'd like to call it, anymore, but its just that I prefer to keep it off my blog. Somethings are better left unsaid yeah. Some things are too personal, too painful, to be in public.

Sometimes I wish that things were different. Once you get a taste of what true happiness is, nothing else can really compare. Call me a romantic, but I still long for those days.

I wonder why you seem so distant now. What happened? Once, I would have been lost, but now I've grown up a little.

Cryptic sentences are infuriating to readers, I know. I think that's the point, really. Oops xD

I need to study chem alot more.

It's just perfect that when I'm actually looking to practice there's nothing to practice on -.-

WHAT HAPPENED TO THE TEN-YEAR SERIES THAT I BOUGHT!?

I'm very efficient when studying in church.

The only time I can sit still for 4 hours and not move and just study.

And can anyone show me their graphic organizer for portfolio? I need to edit ><

Quadrapop high score 195k :)) My turn to have the crazy high score xD

You loved me, when I was so unlovely.

You cleansed me with Your own blood.

When Your love for me is so real to behold.
I'm sorry.

Congrats to

Table Tennis
Gymnastics
Cross Country
RIGE

for bringing back golds for raffles this year! GwH for RIGE yeahh.

And x-country was featured in the papers lol.

I'll take all the help I can get now thankyouverymuch

keep holding on
cos you know we'll make it through
make it through
just stay strong
cos you know i'm here for you
here for you
theres nothing you could say
nothing you could do
theres no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cos you know we'll make it through
make it through

I lack inspiration to blog.

And I'm stuck at an impasse, and I don't know what to do.

Dramafeste heating up. CO starting again. Work intensifying.

I'm being put through the wringer.

I'm supposed to be sleeping now, but anyway.

Haha. Was rereading some of my old posts on my old blog.

I think my old posts were a lot funnier and interesting to read compared to now.

Too...serious right!

(Although there are the jorel posts. HAHA)

Heh. But I'm actually quite encouraged from the stuff I wrote last year. There was a period that I was on fire for God. I need to get back to that place.

The struggles of 2007 have been completely different from 2006.

Time for an introspective moment.

Goodnight.

I can't do this.

Things just get better and better, huh.

Practice starts again next week. What happened to that one month break we were promised! It's not even been 3 weeks yet lah. Whats the problem...

Great, but crazy day out.

Went to parkway, vivo and suntec in the space of 7 hours.

Whoa.

I'm amazed at some people's capacity to just shop.

Mark was great company. Haha I lost count of the number of things we poked fun at. XD

Amanda can testify to that.

=DD

Blithe Spirit

The play was good! Very different from doubt last year, and had a lot of laughs. And for once, a lit text/play that's easy to analyze!

On another note, the next few weeks are killer. Damnit.

Says it all, really.

Glory glory Man United..

=DD

And when you go

What am I left with?

Portfolio isn't so hopeless after all. I guess sitting down and really thinking and working does reap dividends.

Why does sec 4 seem like such a painful year for everyone?

Sometimes, I'm just lost for words.

Things could get better, but they could get worse too.

Help me trust.

In You.

Cause the alternatives always fail.

Nothing's going right today.

Things could get better.

Yeah.






I love the feel of your name on my lips

Finally, a break.

What a week. Very happy with the gold. At the same time, had a lot of issues to resolve.

Thank God it's over =)

I'm in no mental state to do the stupid book report.

I hate feeling like this.

Why

Yeahhhh

Gold!

SYF tmr.

What is meant to be, will be.

Thanks for all the wishes guys =)

What's the most important thing to you in your life now?

And what would you do if that thing was stolen away from you?

We all know how unpredictable life is. It may be smooth sailing for a time then the next moment you may be gasping for air, unable to keep afloat. Cliche, yeah, but we really don't know, do we?

So just what is your purpose in life?

Will it matter to you in 10, 15 years time?

Just think about it.

After the tragic tale of the two butteflies, I've decided to post something a little more optimistic =)

Haha its really sweet.





Look for the part where they reform hands.

All together with me now.

Aww.

100th post! :D

Saw something interesting on the way home in my dad's car. At the junction outside my house, we stopped by the traffic light, and I noticed two butterflies flying around each other very animatedly, and they flew onto the road, oblivious to their surroundings. So I pointed out:

'Eh! Two butterflies are performing some mating dance/ritual thingy'

'Oh thats so sweet!' -my sis.

Half a second later, a taxi shot past, impaling both butterflies. Yeah, impaling.

I didn't even have time to blink.

My sis tells me that she saw only one butterfly remaining.

Didn't know whether to laugh or cry. Or both.

I guess this means...um...

Er.

It means something, anyway.

Wow its the 99th post already.

My ankle isn't a pretty sight. Damnit.

I've been watching it throb O_O

The crack sound was worrying.

And it also means that I can't head down tonight. Zzz. Well at least I don't think anyone's staying overnight anymore..

I go to recharge tmr by not sleeping (:

Yayy.

Just wish I didn't have to go school again after that -_-

Just spent a lot of time listening to the new avril lavigne songs on youtube. It's really, really weird. I much prefer her old style of singing pls.

Damn. Have to conduct trials tmr, and I haven't even settled how or what I'm gonna do. Yay champ.

it never rains, but it pours

Polo lost. Softball lost.

It's just been a horrible year for us hasn't it. What an awful B'div tournament for all our sportsmen. Damnit.







I've been adrift,
but I now know just how awful it is to not have You.

First post in four days. Been really lazy to post haha, have had a lot of stuff on the past few days, so I really need to take a breather.

Physics tmr! I've been mugging, but for some reason I just don't feel completely prepared. Graarh. I guess I'll have to go mug some more tonight.

Been an insanely hectic start to the term, such that I've hardly had time to actually sit down and think about things. Have to make time for it, cause I find that a bout of self-reflection really does help things. Sorted out some things that have been niggling on my mind the past few days. Discipline is the word.

Guess I got the recharging I was looking for.

65 for math.
7/15 for physics prac.

My gpa just got up, slammed the door, and flushed itself down the toilet bowl. O_O

Whats the point -_-

Yay gg now the rest of the year is just an exercise in damage limitation. HOW FUN.

Mugger's high. Yeah.

No la actually I'm just feeling damn tired -_-

The book review is driving me nuts. Spent almost 3 hours on it today and guess what I'm only half done -_-
And I'm stuck. Will try to finish it by tomorrow, but I guess it's probably just a pipe dream. Heh, at the very least I've got an extension to next week.

Yay now at least I'm no longer clueless about physics.

Tmr shall be spent at home studying too -.- Actually I just want to sleep. Gahh.

It says alot about student life that when you are sick, the MC just means more time to chiong out unfinished work. And mug.

Got a masterplan for today. I SHALL FINISH IT.

I'm becoming increasingly random. o_o

It's the first day of a new term and already the workload (carried over from the holidays too) is getting unbearable.

I think randomness is a reflex action. To cope. Yeah.

16th Birthday!

90th post. Nice number.

Finally I've turned16. (I have a penchant for stating the obvious) Strangely enough it arrived with little fanfare, but that's not really important is it? Thank you everyone for your wishes! :))

Although I can't believe I spent my 16th birthday doing math. Oh the ignominy.

Today marks the end of something. I hope it signals the start of something better, brighter. I'm not worrying though; I have faith in what lies in store.

I made 3 wishes today. If everyone of them is fulfilled, I really couldn't ask for anything more. For once, these are the deepest desires of my heart. They shall remain there for now.

(Been having a really lousy week, but thanks to everyone who've cheered me up! :) )

I'm feeling very very very very tired.

Ehh and slau knock it off will you? Stop the flaming; its just mean and pointless. We all have our own opinions, but keep the inflammatory stuff of public forums like blogs can?

I'll post up some pictures of our merry little jaunt (hah.) to penang later.

I really need to get out of this rut. :S

And btw: flamers just leave my tagboard alone can? I don't mind if you flame me cause frankly I couldn't care less, but leave your personal vendettas off my tagboard. I'm just very very sick of flamers already. I may as well delete the tagboard if it continues.

"Blessed be the God and the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort those who are in any trouble, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God."

- 2 Cor. 1:3-4

This has perfectly encapsulated my feelings about my past month.

This post is excruciatingly difficult to type. My finger is sprained, and there's a sickening crack when I bend it sometimes, you know the type you get when you pull your fingers? The pain of the crack, coupled with the pain of the sprain (O_O that rhymes what the heck) is making typing a chore.

But there's something I have to say:

I've only gotten through these few days unscathed because of my Lord Jesus Christ :) It's only by His strength alone that I've managed to stay afloat. Amen to that!

"Judge not, and you shall not be judged. Condemn not, and you shall not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven."

- Luke 6:37

"In My Father's house are many mansions; if it were not so, I would have told you. I go to prepare a place for you. And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and receive you to Myself; that where I am, there you may be also. And where I go you know, and the way you know."

- John 14:2-4

Even after reading Scripture for so long, the treasure trove that is the Bible continues to throw out amazing promises like these.

For the wages of sin is death.

Death may come in many forms, not just the literal one we are all familiar with. Of course, that is the most obvious and most permanent form, but the others are just as deadly.

Emotional death.

Death to love.

Death to others.

All are tragic.

But we have an awesome promise: that we are no longer bound to sin! We are free from that endless torment. That does not mean that we are free from temptation, but that temptation no longer has any hold whatsoever upon us. In short, we are free.

That means that we are free to live.

I claim that promise. And the joy that I've found is amazing.

"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope"

- Jeremiah 29:11

Soar on Eagle's Wings

God works in wonderful ways. Amen to that!

I headed down to church today after school entirely expecting to just pick up the book I came for and head back home to study. What was unexpected was that I spent almost one and a half hours talking and sharing about really personal issues, about my walk with God and how I've been changing over the past few months or so. Really, it seems staggering.

I've been inspired. I've seen how powerful the Word of God is.

Thank you so much! :)

I want to continue to grow. I don't ever want to be satisfied.

Something I heard really struck me.

"The christian life is about soaring above the storms and tribulations. God wants to take us above the storm, away from the problems that we face."

I'll always keep that in mind now. O let me soar on eagle's wings!

I know what you're going through.

Teenage life is a big jumbled up mess of insecurities and secret fears. I know, cause I'm right smack in the middle of it too. It certainly isn't easy.

Scientifically speaking it's cos our hormones are causing emotional imbalances, which explains the crazy mood swings that we experience. But it's more than that too.

We're growing up. It's a really long and drawn-out process if you ask me. It would spare us alot of hurt, alot of sleepless nights if maturity could be gained overnight but sadly it can't. It's excruciatingly difficult to continue walking when sometimes life seems so pointless and trivial, where all we do is just study study study.

But our God is bigger than this. He'll bring you and me through.

Trust in Him. It took me a great deal of time, suffering and hurt to learn this simple truth.

Trust in our God. He'll lift you above the storm.

Omq I sound totally mugger-ish in the last post. Hehh.

Laid off from exercise for 3 weeks. Yesterday my shin got whacked by a certain Tan Joel (who has been suitably recompensated for his trouble) and it swelled up. To almost my knee size. I was doing my physics lab prac when I got up to get my hot water I immediately had to sit down again, cause of the swelling. Ahhh. Thankfully it's alot better today, although it still hurts abit. Was really scared at one point that my muscle was torn.

Don't you think 'OMQ' is a cool phrase?

Knvm.

(O_O!! I think I'm starting to sound like Merrill.)










O_O!!!!!!!!

K bye philo essay awaits. I positively drool in anticipation.

I imagine it's not a very pretty sight.

I'm very tired.

AHHH no my source of naruto has dried up! ):

Suddenly I've become very motivated after seeing how good everyone I know has done for the A Levels. 50% of RJ has 4As O_O

I feel decidedly inferior.

SO, I have resolved to work (A LOT) harder. Which is evidenced today by my 4+ hours of mugging! -beams-

I feel so proud (:

NO MORE SLACKING YES.

Though we may struggle

and sometimes lose our way;

remember, if you need me

I'll be there.

Don't lose hope :)